The Day I Turned 30….
Some of you many have seen on various social media platforms over the past day or so that I turned 30 on Monday.
In a way I’ve been dreading turning 30 most of my life and now it’s happened i’m actually left wondering “why was I worried about it?!”.
Yes OK, I’m only days into being 30 but I don’t feel any different to when I was 29.
Its just a mental realisation that I am a fully fledged adult I suppose, I can’t put any silly mistakes I make now down to being young & naive… I suppose that’s been that way for the last 5 years. But in my head I am still 15! Always will be.
With my new realisation I am now an adult I am determined to make the next 10 years of my life a complete life changer. I want my life to change for the better, personally and also with my future career.
Looking over the past 10 years there have been so so many amazingly happy times, getting married, having children and settling back down in Shropshire all of which have made our family and home life solid. I am loving being a wife and a mother to my 2 adorable children, they are my absolute world and I couldn’t live or breathe without them.
But there has also been quite a few unhappy occasions, first of all loosing our daughter Megan in pregnancy, then the anxiety/PND which surrounded all my pregnancies and lastly the sexual assault which I went through. I never properly blogged about the assault, I still find that the trauma of it all is too painful and it’s locked away in the back of my mind now, trying to think about me makes me feel numb and sick. I really did have a bad 3 years, living all the nightmares, recovering and trying to keep myself and my family together.
I know I will never forget the bad stuff and in a way I don’t ever want to, especially loosing my Daughter. She has made me the person I am today and not a day goes by where I don’t miss her and wonder what she would be like had she have lived.
But all that aside, I am a happy and a well recovered woman now. I want the next 10 years to be an amazing chapter in my life with so much to look forward to.
First up I have plans to really kick off my photography business, starting this month so it seems as I shall be photographing my first wedding and also have a few portrait shoots in the pipeline. I hope for this to be a really good and successful part time business working around my children’s school hours.
Next up I HAVE to buy a house, 6 years living in rented property and that’s 6 years of wasted money in my eyes. I need to get a house purchased, get a huge amount of debt (mortgage) but I want somewhere to finally call home.
And lastly I want to see my family grow and bloom, my children to succeed in their education and my husband’s business to also grow strongly.
I had an amazing birthday, I spent the day surrounded by my family. Lewis unfortunately had to go to school but Sam and Leah treated me to a lovely outing to Shrewsbury. I’d wanted to properly visit Shrewsbury Castle and now it’s been ticked off my “Bucket List”. The evening, after collecting Lewis from school we headed over to Wolverhampton to a wonderful all you can eat buffet. I had a thoroughly lovely day, spoilt by family and friends. What more could a girl ask for?
Here’s to the next 10 years!
Hopefully I won’t dread being 40 as much as I’ve dreaded my 30’s!